Today during lunch, I ran into an old student that I taught during my second year of education. As a student, he was very boisterous, intelligent, and sure of himself.
Eating pho has become a recent obsession of mine. Each week, I find myself with the people I care about, enjoying a warm bowl filled with vegetables, savory broth, and tofu. Each time I enjoy this meal, the pressure from my sinuses is relieved but causes me to have to head towards the restroom to prevent patrons from losing their appetite at the sight and sound of me blowing my nose. As I entered the restroom, I saw him. He was standing at the sink and immediately I remembered him. I patted him on the shoulder and we greeted each other like old pals. I was taken aback by his appearance. He didn’t look like the upbeat kid who was full of zeal and passion. He looked dejected and as he spoke, the words slurred out of his mouth.
As I did back when he was a student, we had a check in. I inquired about his current situation, goals, and plans. He admitted that he was uncertain.
In life, the only certainty is change. It takes a certain amount of craziness and resolve to just surrender and accept it. I struggled with surrending for years and still have moments where I rather swim against the current than simply float. When we think about surrendering, it feels like we’re giving in. But I push myself to think beyond the ego and to understand that surrending doesn’t mean not having a plan for your life, but rather the opposite. Having an intention is crucial towards success, yet we must release the desire to control the outcome.
Seeing my student was a reminder to surrender, smell the flowers, and continue to be clear on the intention. When we think we’re helping others, we’re truly helping ourselves.
Snow in the spring?!
Yes, snow in the spring.
As someone born in April, I’ve become accustomed to experiencing rain during my birthday. It’s never bothered me because, well, it’s spring and everyone knows that “April showers, bring May flowers”. Though, for the past few years, I’ve opted for locales that experience little rain and have more sunshine to offer.
However, this year, I’ve challenged myself to break away from the familiar and step forward into the unknown. Uncertainty used to scare me because well, it’s unpredictable. But, having grown more spiritually, I’ve accepted that all of life is uncertain. Nothing is ever guaranteed and that can be a beautiful thing. Having said as much, this year, I decided to enjoy my “Earth Day” in Aspen, Colorado. I’ve been to Park City, Utah a couple times and absolutely loved it. It’s something special about scenic mountains, small shops, and wildlife. Aspen has always been on my radar and this past week was a full circle moment for me. Not only did powder white snow cascade from the sky and create one of the most picturesque landscapes I’d ever seen, having my loved ones with me, made the experience even more worthwhile.
Life is precious and yes, sometimes the downs feel horrible, but whenever you have an up, I know that it has to be savored. I love that I can look back a few years and could only dream of experiencing the things I do now. Staying committed to your path and trusting yourself to navigate through your obstacles and find your way, is audacious.
Aspen, thank you for your majestic beauty, positive vibes, and warmth. We felt the love.
Until next time,
There are no words that I can offer your mom to make this day feel any better. I pray for her, and that even in this shocking moment, she’s able to find peace, comfort, and the solace that she needs.
Zeke, you inspire me.
May you have a smooth transition into the afterlife. Watch over your mom. Rest, easy young fellow.